school is really damn crazy...FINALLY THE STUPID BUSINESS PRESENTATION HAS ENDED...wah it was so painful doing it...like seriously there were things that tested my patience, ideas that couldnt seem to work out...it was like some never ending report.....whoo hoo burn the stupid business booklet!!!!!side track( ANGELINA JOLIE AND BRAD PITT IS SPLITTING...WHOO HOO!OMG YES FINALLY..MUAHAHA) I AM SO MEAN BUT ANGELINA IS JUST SOOO....EEEE..she snatched brad away from jennifer...

so coffee table book is done too...but i was kinda disappointed about the finishing...overall i really liked it a lot but the finishing can be improved..i dont wanna redo it....no point spending another sum of money...plus i tried to be as meticulous as possible....redid my concept like a billion times...

i guess i am loving VC00801 more and more each day..heheh thanks, u guys have been very patient with me when i squeal and whine..i didnt know i was whiny until faiz told me...i was asking him whether he liked whiny girls and he said no...so i asked him whether i was whiny and he said ya la..ahahahha and it was like an effortless reply..like dionne hoe shu min= whiny...

but he said other girls are worst then me...i guess i become whiny when i panick...and by the way

I FOUND MY HEARTS SCRUNCHY LEH....u know i was so happy i wanted to throw a mini party..its like the prodigal son....his father embraced him with open arms...and i did that to my scrunchy..WHOO HOO...i know the word anal is a very strong word but i am very anal when it comes to my pocession..i hate it when i goes missing, destroyed when someone doesnt take care of it....guess what???top shop has sheer heart legging again..gonna get my hand on those...kekeke....I HEARTS HEARTS...

i kept sleeping today...how how gonna stay up and do work....submission for retail falls on my bd!!whoo hoo i think i may be able to celebrate it and not do work on that day..anyways i think i am getting fatter..and i am so pissed...i thought by being under a lot of stress i will be able to lose weight..but NO...i wish my thighs were smaller, i wish i had slimmer arms and a flatter tummy...bleah to weight issues...

there are many things on my mind....i dont really know how to express myself because its kinda sensitive and i dont wanna screw things up...anyways some things are meant to be...some people get everything effortlessly dont they...while some have to work so hard for things to happen...hiaz..

school is really killing me....i dont know why...

its like i have never been so burnt out throughout 

my 1 and a half years in poly...i have been waking up

in the middle of the night sweating profusely, and

worrying about assignments which i have completed

and not completed....mum, nagging incessantly over

the smallest of things..she is really making things a lot

worst for me...sometimes i dont dare tell her anything

for fear that she will start screaming and then i get more

pressurized...i find myself engulfed with fear in the middle

of the night as i do my work...feeling empty inside me..suddenly my

mind blanks out and i dont know what to do....

my mum was the one who wants me to go to poly, however time and again

i know that deep inside she wished so badly that i was in JC instead.....its so obvious

from the way she speaks...she asked me how this person did for O levels and when i told

her she said wow look at how smart the person, unlike u, ur life is a mess, i dont know

what u are doing...

lets go back to the main reason why i am stressed..maybe its because i know that 

i am not too bright therefore since i am blessed with a skill, i am trying to major in

it and do my best, maybe because i am trying to pick myself up and prove to myself

that i can do something in life, maybe because compared to others, i dont have it easy.

actually i am sick and tired of what my mum thinks anymore...i shouldnt care and just

take pride in what i am doing...after all its my future...

shut up just shut up.

one of the sweetest and most caring groups in the world.....

                                                     YO YO we are in the house yo........
                                ok the last pic is just scary..haha i dont know what i was doing..ama and nat                                     are just cute

Random code for the day: I HAVE A FILLING!sing to the tune of the black eye peas song(i went to fill my tooth cavities today)heheheh

dont you just love my pun..anyways so much drama happened in the morning i should just be an actress...wah but anyways thank God so so much....ok so heres the story....i went to the dentist and after my treatment i had to pay...then i realised that the 100 dollars my mum gave me was in the envelop which i gave to the nurse earlier...PANIC PANIC PANIC...so i asked the nurse if she kept it and she said she threw it away...so i asked her to search the dustbin and she said that the rubbish aunty just emptied all the rubbish bins....i swore my life flashed past me...suddenly my head kept spinning and i felt this gapping hole in my heart..at that moment i knew nothing could patch it back...it shattered into a myraid of splinters...i was taking long deep breaths...NOO....dont leave me 100 dollars...AHAHAHA i act new moon...that was how moppy the book was but i still like it..

anyways seriously i was damn scared because $100 is really not a small deal..can u imagine all the dresses one can buy..not me but generally...i know my mum would scream at me and i prob have to eat stones because i wont get allowance..and i also have to drink dew from the leaves...then luckily one of the helpful nurses spotted some rubbish bags at the corner and asked me to rumage through it...so i did reluctantly..then i was kinda transfixed with fear so i was still a little blur and all...then i didnt know how to search the trash bags...so i squat down and just look at the rubbish...then the nurse was like :

"aiya i help u la..u cannot so slow u know!!"

haha i wanted to say sorry i princess...ahaha no la i didnt say that ok...i was just a bit disgusted because like all the rubbish mixed together so there were pads and all..OMGGGGGG...but lucky i wore gloves..

so i didnt do much searching....i just help open the bag bigger...then the aunty nurse was damn nice la...she was like girl dont give up hope, can find one...then dig dig dig and then she found a letter..but it wasnt mind...then she searched more and OMG WE FOUND MY LETTER!!!ARRRR. AND THEN WITH SHAKEY HANDS I OPENED IT AND FOUND $100 ENCLOSED IN THE LETTER....!!i was so happy i nearly exploded with expletives...ahaha but i am unvulgar girl so i didnt...

then the nurse and i screamed....we were like "whoo!!!!!!"...omg shes so cute right the nurse...then we kept laughing after that and she beat my arm with the letter..i was like ew ew ew please do not do that..but never mind la...she helped me so much i better shut up and be grateful..i think she was GOD'S ANGEL..ahahaha...after that i thanked her profusely and went to the counter to pay...

then the nurse at the counter was like aiyo girl dont do this again..then she was like how old are u...i was too embarrassed to tell her my actual age so i said very old...HEHEHE...i swear that if my mum was the nurse...she will scream so damn loud that all those people with tooth ache will drop all their teeth...dentist dont have to extract it..wah thank GOD...

so after all the drama...i met up with mum and russ..we went to illuma..love that place..i know everyone hates it but neevr mind, i am special, i like it...mum wanted to treat us to mahatthan fish market..we had dory fillet..its the bomb man...then we went exploring the illuminating shopping centre...the highest level were all arcade games... i saw this claw machine with super cute toys ..you know how hugh jackman explode with abs right, ya it was exploding with cuteness..disney characters with flat features...haha look like me..my nose like mushroom i

know...so i decided to try my luck..or rathered i pressured russ to help me...we were aiming for a dumbo soft toy...then after 4 tries, we didnt get it..i was apprehensive as to whether i should spend more money on it because we were damn close, like just a nudge and the toy would be in my hands..MUAHHAHA...

so as i was debating whether or not i should play..this not so skinny girl went to play leh...OMG...my life flashed past me again...then with a simple nudged, the toy fell into the hole.....I SCREAMED DAMN LOUD and she smiled at me...fine la so now show off all...i was so mad i kept punching russ..hehehe...then i went to top up my card...and before we played, the toy arranger dude went to rearrange more soft toys so i thick skin went to ask him to put the elephant at the corner..ahaha and he did leh!!so nice..and guess what I GOT THE DUMBO TOY..WHOO HOO...then since we had 4 more dollars, we tried again and russ got a bunny for me...and then i got so excited i wanted to try my luck for the last time...i wanted the baby dumbo so much..because it was so adorable and i couldnt take my eyes off it..

ok at this period of time i got so shameless...i approached toy arranger dude..he was so free anyway...i asked him to arrange the toys..wah he fun fair throw all the toys to my side and then i asked him to put the baby dumbo at the corner.AHAHAHA.so gross i am..and he did leh..maybe he secretly likes me..kua kua joking....and so with a simple push! I GOT THE TOY....haha some guys nearby helped russ and i...gave us some advice as to how to position the toy...wah i get one toy, whole world help us...yup so thats how i ended up with 3 toys..

hahaa...i should be claw machine spokes person...i will pose with the soft toys in my arms...or maybe i can burst forth from a pile of toys...good idea right...when i have a boyfriend i will force him to win one whole set for me..and if he doesnt i will pout and scream..ook joking..no one wanna date me now...

          awww man....so cute right....guess which one is my fav..guess!!!

 my very first win..ahaha stupid not so skinny girl..in ur face

haha i am gonna have a random code for the day everytime i blog..anyways cows are done!!!YAY!wah trace like no siblings, no parents, no life no dresses...but i had loads of fun doing it..it wasnt like grrrr i hate the project i wanna end it in no time kinda thing....i think everyone's cows in class were very unique and different..

i love smelling my pillow...speaking about pillows..i remembered the time when i was jumping on my gong gongs bed then my face landed in his pillow...OMG...suddenly i lost my sense of smell for like 20 minutes...seriously u know i love my gongs but his pillow really stinks to the high heavens..when i told my popo right she said if u ever throw his pillow into the sea, all the fishes will die..i can picture the image in my mind...wahhh it was really bad!!i swear i did a backflip...haha if anyone faints right..let me know..i will come to their rescue using jolter 67!just place the pillow on the faintee's face and viola!he/she wakes up in one sec!TRY IT!IT WORKS...

oh and yesterday in class during camera packaging class dont know what isit called....Chrissie saw something on my thigh and she was like is that a love bite...haha honestly a love bite there is just werid...then mr kwok came and said what isit that i heard about love bites..haha nosey parker..so i said CHRISSIE WANNA GIVE U A LOVE BITE...ahahhaa he kinda laughed..oh wells he can be very easiy bullied....

just wanna tell you that i won tickets to 2012!!!WHOO!!watched it last wednesday during the gala preview..i won by calling in to 987..had the feeling my call will go through...and when the muttons picked up i went :OMGOMGOMG!!then they also went omgomg omg.ahahhahaha..so they asked me a question which was what would you bring along in the year 2012..i said baby photos..ahaha..i cant think of anything else to bring..i mean if u bring ur ipod, it will die eventually right..then what use it as paper weight?electronic gadgets will die over they dont get charged and all right..so i thought since u cant ever take ur baby pictures again u might as well bring it with you...and when u look at them and imagine how hard was it for ur mum to give birth to u, u will fight hard for ur exsistence..makes sense??i think it does...hhahaha..the show was great, watched it with jolyn..cried a few times when families ahd to hug and perish together..

how will u wanna die??i dont wanna drown..the feeling sucks..i prefer immediate painless death leh..how ar....choke on sweet?also pain...suffocated in a sea of cotton wool?also sian..aiya dont know...maybe i wont die, i will be the hot survivors..whoo hoo and when the world is in turmoil, i will rush into dress shops and steal all the dresses...

by the way i got my brown contacts, my mum thinks i look scary like a porcelain doll..hahaha and i realise people tend to stare more into my eyes when they talk to me..its funny...see ya~