i am in charge of the fundraising committee..in order to get people to join i shouted" EVERYONE JOINING FUNdrasing..its fun not boring raising.."and everyone was like giving me the sian tiao face...but not bad i managed to get quite alot of people..haha i thought of having a manicure session where we help little girls and the aunties to paint their nails..plus on top of that, i thought of getting those little fishies who feed on the dead skin of people...OH OH..
maybe i can rent out my u zap!!whoo..or maybe i can have a hello kitty exhibition where i showcase my shrine which i have built for my hello kitty water bottle...then i can dress up like hello kitty and wear a hello kitty mask...and the little girls have to pay 3 dollars to take a picture with me..cool right..yay my members will have such a fun time..hehe
ok anyways went out with jolyn to china town the other day..i bought 2 dresses..haha and i saw a few more which i liked but i am kinda broke..arggg...hate that feeling..so guess which shop did we pass..PIE KIA!!haha thats like our favourite stall..and they sell PIE seh which is some kind of pie...jolyn and i stood at the shop laughing uncontrollably...then we were thinking of stupid orders which we can place..
US:then oh can we have a meat PIE KIA...
PIE SEI PAI SEI we wanna change to a vegatable one..
PIE PERSON:so what u want? PIE KIA OR PAI SEI..haha
we came out with other retarded food names like:
BREAD PITT AND taliBUNS..hheheheh

RETARDATION RESIDES...

thats jolyn and her new bangs...she looks so cute hore..

Breast friend...



then on saturday i met up with jolyn and ronda..it was raining like no ones beeswax..the rain DAMPENDED our spirits and it was such a WET BLANKET..ahaha punned twice.



local band cats in the cradle performed..the lead singer is kinda cute..so we cheng ji squeeze beside him...plus we tried to take a nice picture of him singing..but to no avail...

ok never mind just concentrate on us since the fireworks cannot really be seen...
the fire works were just fabulous...chris and i decided to make it an annual thing and we will watch fireworks together until we get a boyfriend..then we will watch it with them..i had a magical feeling tingling inside of me..haha i hope that my boyfriend will book a firework display when he proposes to me...yay then we can go get married in a castle after that...and ride away to our hotel on a unicorn...
sometimes i wonder...why am i never good enough
what went wrong..i hate this feeling but it keeps coming
back to me...i know i shouldnt change...
gosh its just so difficult and it sucks that i have to keep
it all inside..i am just so tired of waiting and comforting myself..
all my beliefs which i held so strongly to seem to be wrong...
i dont know what should i do...