i felt cornered, betrayed, accused, unsupported and alone.

I dont like it when the word INNOCENT is used on me. I am not innocent at all.Definitely not. and i dont like it when people associate it with being a christian. Dont get me wrong, its not that i am not proud of my religion or anything but associating both words together just stereotypes me and i feel as though i have to live up to certain expectations. I am not like super holy all the time, but i try my best to do things according to my principals and beliefs. This was what my teacher said to me when i was ranting and was very upset about what some accusations hurled towards me. 

he said"blah blah blah, so what more you are a christian, you must be more forgiving and be like GOD...". FIRSTLY, why do u have to use my religion against me, you stereotype ME AS AN INNOCENT CHRISTIAN GIRL and now use it against me??????SO ALL THE WHILE, YOU WERE THE ONE WHO MADE THIS IMAGE UP......and just because i am christian i dont have the right to be angry?????must i be innocent and docile all the time????DO U EVEN HAVE ANY IDEA WHY I AM PISSED?ARE YOU THE ONE WHO IS GETTNG INSULTED???AND ACCUSED?no!!!you werent, and you have the right to ask me to forgive and forget????if i was so bitchy, i would have confronted them in front of class but i choose not to do that....so people of other religion have the right to be angry and i dont?????so what do you expect me to do sir??????SAY OHH...ITS ALRIGHT AND EMBRACE THEM WITH OPEN ARMS???????

i think i do have the right to be angry and pissed...NO MATTER WHAT RELIGION YOU ARE, YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE ANGRY, THATS WHY GOD GAVE ME EMOTIONS AND ONE OF THEM IS ANGER. Please dont push me to my limit...I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS SHIT OK...I NEED MY OWN SPACE, I NEED TO BREATHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know sometimes i feel so cornered and alone, i feel so empty and so overwhelmed....

do you know how hard it is to bottle up all your emotions........i had enough

thanks natalie and sonia for sticking up for me when stupid melvin threw pointless questions at me..